Looking Forward

The curtain of 2011 will fall soon. Gladfully, I've gone through a fantabulous one.

Be it the indirect confession I had made earlier this year, the busiest day in my life in July, the chant of You Will Never Walk Alone inside LRT, the live football game in a stadium which accommodates 80,000 of homosapiens,  the 21 which made me feel so warm, the hellish days as an employee of financial sector, the concert which I had watched live for the first time... All these are such amazing experiences.

Thanks to all the guys and girls who had accompanied me through this unforgettable year. I'll be looking forward for a better year in 2012 with you all, regardless of whether the Maya's prophecy fulfills or not.

To all whom I care, hope you all will stay cheerful and healthy now and always. Don't get shadowed by negative emotions and let positive attitude play a prominent part in your life! Forward, is really the only direction we should go. =)

說你愛我-S.H.E

突然间停了这首歌，突然间很有feel。

这个Hebe也太美了，我看过最美的短发，绝对符合我心中的美女的标准，甚至爆灯。

一甜掀百酸？

人一生人种总会有几个让自己终生难忘的画面。

而我，最近增添了一幅，距离上次还蛮久的吧……

很甜，但甜完后呢？很酸。

酸死了。

跟上次很相像，只是时间地点人物不同而已。

而我，依然是那么的窝囊……

是你变了吗？

最近有关我朋友的所听所闻，让我觉得我好像不认识他们了。又或许是因为我不打算走跟他们一样的路吧。
纯真的人类果然是稀有动物，知道身边的人能够接受乱七八糟的关系还真让人受不了。
或许是处女座的我有洁癖吧，我绝对接受不了。
渐行渐远了。

无言

当你有一个对什么事都要理不理的老豆时，你真的会觉得心灰意冷。
跟他讲车要service了，过了两个礼拜还没有行动，甚至认定我会自动去service。
妈的你有没有讲到底你要我去service还是你自己去，有没有给我钱去service，是想怎样？
最不爽的是妈妈还要叫我跟爸爸拿钱，现在又不是我没有通知他，做爸爸的不是应该自动拿车去维修或者给钱我拿去维修的咩？
我真的要快点毕业，他妈的每天都要为钱看人眼色，好像坐牢一样……

谢谢

昨天我的一帮好朋友帮我庆祝了生日，非常感恩！

我并不是一个很会说话的人，所以还是写一些东西给大家吧！

做着那位可爱的女生叫Joyce。外表不算出众（如有得罪多多包涵），带内涵却是一流的，孩子气的背后有着成熟的思想。也继承了她爸爸那鞠躬尽瘁的精神和她妈妈活泼开朗的个性，在我眼中是一位非常幸福的女生。非常谢谢你帮我安排这个dinner啦！就祝你跟他……

这位呢是我中学开始就很好的死党YY，对朋友好，对女人更好！绝对的人际高手，跟着他绝对不愁没朋友。不过口太花了，就祝你有个好女人来治你吧！

这个是刚有女友不久的振翔，算是个小富二代。话不算多但很精，也蛮幽默的。跟我一样选跟金融有关的科系，所以也有很多共同的话题。祝你跟Mei San小两口幸福快乐咯！

这个是如果外向一点会非常帅的王哲豪，是个象棋高手。挺聪明的，可是都是比较实践性的聪明，所以考试这种理论性的东西总是显得有点力不从心。到了职场应该能够大显身手吧！就祝你跟她……

This is Stanley who is very good in sports and just won a volleyball tournament! Humourous guy he is, who is also very brave to pursue for his love. Thanks for rushing here despite all the sweat after playing volleyball. Hope you will find your destined one soon! =)

这个是HH，又帅又非常聪明运动又很好家境又很好，是很典型的白马王子（实际上是不是就由你们来判断）。有娱乐细胞，总是讲出我们不好意思讲的事，哈哈。我也不知道还有什么可以祝衣食无忧的你，就祝你以后比现在好吧！

这个是也……不久的Ah Choo， 是个比较艺术型的女生，所以读精算这门科系总显得很辛苦。谢谢你帮我book这个餐厅。祝你以后能够从事一些比较艺术性又比较没压力而你又喜欢的工作，还有……！

最迟来所以就留你们到最后了，哈哈！Ah Tok，大男人和Carmen，小女人。很可能第一对送我红色炸弹的朋友，哈哈！谢谢你们去了一场生日趴又赶过来我这里！祝你们快点修成正果啦！我期待着Carmen穿婚纱唱最重要的决定哦！

也谢谢人没到礼道的Mun和Casper，我会很珍惜你们的礼物的。但你们没有到我也就没写你们咯！=P

也谢谢Italiannies，你们的服务很贴心，顶！

最后还是要说声谢谢！因为你们，所以我快乐。=D

好的事情

Simply love it.

严爵，这首歌让我爱上了你。

Daylight Robbers

Well, that's basically what our government is.

My point is, if you want to channel taxpayers money to your own pockets, do it smart. Do it under the table without being noticed. And polish it nicely on the surface - not those tricks of pure stupidity that are easily spotted by the rakyats.

How many times must we encounter cases like Teoh Beng Hock? How many times must we be disgraced by foolish translations in important diplomatic events?

It's pretty sad seriously to be ruled by a bunch of incompetent human beings. That's pretty much explained the vast gap between Malaysia and Singapore in less than 60 years after departure.

Year 3 Sem 1 - The Dawn As Senior

Firstly, things that I've done at sem break:

• Gone through the ending of Final Fantasy X. Not so interesting actually compared to its recent predecessors.
• Played (and playing) Final Fantasy XII. The best gameplay amongst all the FFs so far and comes with my most favourite theme - empire.
• Done a part time job with a pretty lucrative pay. Nothing much to do as well, which made me kind of sinful. Lol.
• Watched Insidious. Some say scary, some say not. I was on the middle - it didn't scare the hell out of me, but the Victorian lady did creep me out.

As you can see, I was pretty slacked and virtually didn't study any about Exam MFE.

Now back to this sem. My excitement about studying has just reached another level with two very interesting subjects - Portfolio Management and Business Finance. They say those who born Sept 15th are good in managing finances - I think I am a good example. =P

My final year will definitely be an interesting one!

Final Exam: Recap

• Microeconomics: The worst case didn't happen, and so I got what I expected. =)
• Credibility Theory: Seems like little mistake had been done. Thank goodness I didn't have to suffer the penalty for being late to the exam. An ala Istanbul comeback, seriously.
• Introduction to Actuarial Mathematics: The biggest disappointment to be honest. This is also the thing that separates me from the Dean's and President's list.
• Applied Statistical Models: I must've been pretty prudent on this paper. Slightly better than what I've expected.
• Financial Economics: I will be in a big shock if the results didn't come out as what it is, and the big shock doesn't occur.
• Advanced Calculus: Got an undeserving good grade. I would gladly exchange this with IAM's grade.

Conclusion: Much better than what I was expecting in overall. Great semester Indeed. =)

Year 2 Sem 3 - The Summary

And there comes the end of my second year of degree. One more year and I'm free from limitations as a student (financially especially). Wee~ Here's the summary of my final exam this semester:

• Microeconomics - This is easiest final exam I've ever took in my degree. The lecturer actually just copied the whole thing from the book written by him into the final paper, without any amendments. That was awesomely cool. Finished the paper without any lag. Not quite positive about the grades though, since everyone should be doing pretty good with such difficulty.
• Credibility Theory - Another pretty easy final exam due to all the tips given by the lecturer and the effort I had put in due to my terrible coursework. Unfortunately, I was late for about 20 minutes for that. Thank god it was a 2.5 hours exam, otherwise I would be doomed. There's none of the questions that I wasn't sure about the working, so barring calculation mistakes and key-in mistakes to the calculator, I was doing pretty well.
• Introduction to Actuarial Mathematics - One of the two must do well subjects this semester in my opinion as this and Financial Economics are the true gateway to the actuarial field. Not too bad I suppose, but you never know until the results are out.
• Applied Statistical Models - Well, the questions are pretty straight forward as usual. The key that determines my grade will be the strictness of marking - my coursework marks was lower than expected because of that.
• Financial Mathematics - I overkilled the coursework, so not much of pressure on this one. Still doing fine though, as this is my favourite subject of the semester.
• Advanced Calculus - I screwed up pretty bad on this one, but that was expected - this subject is just too industrial unrelated that I couldn't give full concentration to study. Furthermore, I was addicted to Remi Gaillard on the day before the exam!

In short, despite the grades won't be as good as GPA of 3.95 on the first sem (not even close!), this semester is the semester that gives me the most satisfaction in terms of academic performance. I am pretty excited to see who'll get into the president list as well - those who do this sem are real actuarial talent.

You Are What You Think, You Are What You Love

I still remember during the last CNY, where my father and uncles had to went to Pahang to attend funeral of my granduncle. Unknown for the reason, I asked, "Whose wedding?" Immediately my dad interrupted, "It's funeral. NOT WEDDING." Still, my aunt praised me, for thinking positively.

I am always proud of that. My lower secondary school has been one of the darkest period of my life, but since then, everything gets better. Because I have changed. The way I think.

When you think positively, bad things become better. You just know how to find ways to make it better. You just need to think how much you can learn from your mistakes and misfortunes. Everything has its good values, that's one of my prime principles. Good things? They only become heavenly good.

Of course, I have to thank the things I love since my childhood and teenage-hood. First things first, Liverpool. One thing amazing as a Liverpudlians is that they cheer so loud when the team's at glory; and we still cheer so loud when the team's on downtime! Also, the never give up spirit has always become a fuel for me to get through my life.

Second, Digimon. Well I think it's one of the common memory of the 90's. This anime has definitely instilled lots of moral values into my personality. Especially HOPE. No anime can replace its position in my heart.

Third, Final Fantasy. Games aren't necessarily bad. In fact, I think that FF series has even richer stories than novels! The characters are just awesome and has so much thing to learn from. Greatest game franchise ever.

You are what you think, you are what you love. Change your way of thinking, and you will see a very different world, from the same situation.

Overkill

Knock them out with style.

I've never feel so happy academically, seriously. Overkilling tests is such a luxurious thing to do since starting my degree.

But I've done that twice in two weeks, that's pretty amazing.

With AS core subjects starting to surface, my performance gets better. Bring it on yo!

Actuary and I are a perfect match. Glad that I picked this field to pursue.

一年，就那么一年

今天看到一大堆快毕业的学长们在拍毕业照……
嗯，我离毕业就那么一年。
一年。
我离可以主宰自己人生的日子就那么一年。
我离可以放手一搏全力以赴的日子，就那么一年。
希望我不会太迟～

无奈

说真的，今天的我，对家人的要求没剩多少了。
父母没钱？没关系，我毕业后自然有办法挣钱。
父母没身份没地位？没有更好，白手起家比较强。
父亲难相处？这真的很无奈。
不是他的出发点不好，只是那种方式真的很令人受不了。
平时都没聊两三句，以讲话就是用骂的，要知道讲者无心，听者有意啊！
最让我失望的是，跟你活了近二十年了你还不懂得用让我觉得舒服的方式跟我沟通，真的很无奈。
要知道我是可以轻易被道理折服的，而不是责备。
责备只是在摧毁我原本就不是很多的自信。
我现在的妈妈比起十年前真的好很多，可爸爸就不这么争气了。
唉，真希望早点毕业赚钱，至少那是大部分问题都可以自己承担了，不需要连累你……

我永远也不会忘记，我迈入21岁的这一年……

大概还有六个月，我就迈入21岁了。

迈入21岁这一年，亲戚们对待我的方式好像变了，让我觉得我好像不再是小孩子了。

迈入21岁这一年，我开始珍惜着我身边的一切，以前好像从没活过的感情细胞顿时活了起来。

迈入21岁这一年，我清楚地了解到，喜欢与爱的差别在哪里。

希望我死之前能够亲口说出那三个字。

我永远也不会忘记，我迈入21岁的这一年……

失落……

人好像总是经一事才长一智。
从来没有如此受伤过，我已经好多天没能专注于任何一件事情上了。
希望我能尽快摆脱伤痛，重拾自我。

Fantastic Chinese New Year

Never have I feel so happy and grateful for my CNY celebrations like this one.

Two days prior to CNY I had a small gathering with some of my ex-schoolmates. Ate dinner together and then went to YY's house for games until three in the morning. Missing my secondary school life so much. =)

Backed to hometown the day after that and spent three nights there. Interestingly my cousins and I tried to help my grandma to webcam with my granduncle at China. Not very productive, but quite funny nonetheless.

I pretty much enjoyed interacting with my cousins and relatives. You can learn lots of lessons about life from them. I have also learned to care the elderly more.

Guess I've grown up much, don't I? =)

Mesmerizing Singapore Part 3

Something to add about Singapore's MRT: their MRT has four languages - English, Chinese, Malay and Tamil - in both audio and visual form! I wonder what's One Malaysia all about when Singapore can do without talk.

25 December 2010
It's never a trip to Singapore if you've never been to Sentosa Island and Merlion Park, and so we were going to Sentosa on this day.

Took MRT again to reach Vivo City where you can take a monorail to Sentosa. Since it was Christmas Day, you can expect how crowded it was. Unfortunately though, the tickets to Universal Studios Singapore were sold out on that day and I realized that each adult ticket costs S$72.00! Well you can enter Genting Theme Park three times with that and that perhaps proves how great is Universal Studios Singapore.

We only managed to get into the train in the third round and I realized that Sentosa Monorail actually has three stations in the island itself! A very accessible tourist spots.

Walked around before we went to the giant Merlion at Sentosa. See the photo below to know how giant it is:

Inside this gigantic replica we were able to watch a video about the history of Merlion and Singapore and also took pictures at its mouth and head.

Next, I went through several thrill rides with my sisters, including:

• ParaJump - A five-story jump bungee style jump. Took me three tries before I actually jumped.
• MegaZip - A 450m long flying fox. Pretty bad one on this as my weight seemed to be unable to drag me to the ending point.
• Skyline Luge - A pretty cool downhill ride similar to go cart. But I really don't like what we had to do before riding it - riding a cable chair with minimal protection. Creepy.

Took Tiger Sky Tower after all the thrills and we was able to see the whole island in that 131m tall elevating structure. Here's some shots:

Universal Studio's roller coaster track

My nephew was wanting to enter the Underworld Park but since the service assistant stated that the seal show was full housed, my cousin decided to cancel the plan and went back home.

26 December 2010

It was the last day where we had a real visit in Singapore and we went to Merlion Park finally! Took a bus ride to there and the compound around is really classy. Bought some ice-creams by the road side and guess what? Their ice-cream breads are really awesome! The vendor actually took out big ice-cream cubes and sliced them to be covered by the bread. Really big in size for the price of S$1.00.

Merlion was very near to the place where we bought ice-creams and we reached before we finished our desserts. It was quite a great view from there as you can see below:

Merlion - mermaid's body, lion's head.

Fantastic view of financial district just behind it.

Esplanade - Singapore's theatre hall. Some called it "The Durian" or 榴梿壳.

My favourite building of all! Marina Bay Sands - a ship-like garden supported by triplet-towers.

Distant view of the financial district.

After all those photo sessions, we planned to walk all the way to Marina Bay Sands. Rested at Esplanade during the journey. My sister managed to capture the cute faces of my niece and nephew:

They are really cute. Lol. It was quite a long walk to reach Marina Bay Sands in which one of the casino in Singapore is located. It is an ultra-luxurious shopping mall in which you can only see those prestigious brands like Ferragamo, Ferrari, Harley Davidson etc..

A Ferrari replica outside of Ferrari shop.

And this's a Harley.

There was a show at ground floor area - a very special pole dance with the dancers attaching themselves to the tip of the poles and swung here and there! Very unique and entertaining. High class area means high class shows? Lol.

Went to Suntec City after that but nothing really impressed me. I discovered that the clothes at Singapore are rather cheap for Singaporeans though as they can sell as low as S$5 for a tee. Same goes to electronic gadgets, where they can get a good-spec laptops in three digits.

And so we went back to my cousin's home and took a good rest before we went back Johor on the other day...

27 December 2010

Departed at 10am to the bus stop and reached Johor around the noon. Will definitely miss my adorable niece and nephew much. Had a stop at my uncle's house and also his wife's shop as my mum chit-chatted with her.

My dad planned to have a stop at Machap during the journey back home but unfortunately it was not opening. So we drove all the way along the federal road until we reached Yong Peng...

My father noticed an otak-otak shop (Ah Jie Otak-Otak) there so he drove into the shop-house area for a break. Ordered 30 otak-otaks and they tasted great. Much better than the ones that I had tried at Muar years ago. There are also various delicacies sold there including Tan Kim Hock and San Shu Gong products, noodles, biscuits etc. so my mum bought lots of them. 

Went home after that and our trip officially ended.

Conclusions about the trip:

• There's no way Malaysia can match Singapore in the next 100 years as our leaders calibre and theirs are in different classes.
• The development at there is so organized and eye-soothing unlike our messy Kuala Lumpur. Those LRT poles are disgusting.
• It's so convenient to live at there and cars are really luxurious expenditures at there.

For me, it's a dream place to live and work so I'll definitely try to find a job there after graduation. Sorry guys if you think I'm not patriotic enough.

Mesmerizing Singapore Part 2

24th December 2010
My cousin had to work at day so we wouldn't have a tour guide till night. Walked around at Little India and some shopping complexes around, but that was really not fun. Very curious about the MRT we passed by though. Got notice two things that shows how developed is Singapore. One, there's usually a giant food court that services all the residences nearby. Very organized. Two, their government are still expanding MRT network despite its superb coverage. That really makes me furious about Malaysia's public transport system.

Well it was Christmas Eve, so to enjoy the atmosphere you just have to go to Orchard Road on that day. And that was the first time I rode MRT in Singapore. Unbelievable! From the first moment I entered the compound I was completely fallen in love with such convenient structure. The escalators to get underground is fast - about twice the speed as the ones found inside shopping complexes. That pretty much shows the usage rate of Singapore MRT.

We definitely had to get tickets to ride MRT. And what we found? No counters. All vendor machines. Cool and efficient. And unlike Malaysia where you have to buy tickets twice when you change between the LRT lines, you won't need to at Singapore. Their interchange stations are to well built where you can change easily.

It was only a couple of minutes before the MRT arrived and there went our MRT ride. Fast. Definitely faster than Malaysians. Crowded - at Malaysia you can only see trains passing nearby Masjid Jamek station crowded at peak hours.

Disembarked at Dhoby Ghout station to change to the other line and reached Orchard station at ease. The station is under a shopping complex. Very accessible. Got out of it and we saw a long line of shopping complexes, about half of Pavillion's standards. Beautiful views as all of them were decorated with Christmas trees and lightings. Very congested with people as well, since Orchard Road is the best place for Christmas celebrations at Singapore. Here are some photos we had taken:

Ferrero Rocher Christmas Tree

For your information we also saw a mini car parade going on! After a long walk around Orchard Road, we ate our dinner nearby and went back by bus. It was quite a day.

Another thing I have noticed: at major tourist spots there are road signs which shows the number of parking lots available around the area. Very helpful to the visitors.

To be continued...

Mesmerizing Singapore

It took me another month to post a new blogpost. Get ready, cause this time it will be quite a long one. *winks*

Got away from Malaysia for the first time during the recent Christmas week after a dizzy dengue week! Reason? Vacation. Destination? Singapore!

Ya it might be very near, but for someone who has never been out of Malaysia before, it's a very great experience! Now, get ready for a not so good narrating about the eye-opening trip...

23rd December 2010

Departed with my family around 1pm with car to my uncle's house at Johore. Reached there around 4 or 5 o'clock before he fetched us to the customs.

Since it was my first time hanging around in the customs everything was new to me. It was quite a walk to reach the checkpoint from the entrance of Sultan Iskandar Building. There were long queues to pass the Malaysian Customs as it was the time where the office hour ended.

After passing through Malaysian Customs, we took a bus ride to Singapore Customs a.k.a. Woodlands Checkpoint. Yay, we were officially out of Malaysia! Same as Malaysia, Singapore also uses electronic passport system for its citizens. But since we are Malaysians, we had to pass through manually a.k.a. let the officers to stamp our passports.

After some tiring travel at both customs, we took another bus which headed to my cousin's house at Little India. I had noticed a lot of things along the journey:

• Their outer ring roads have very ample space more expansion! Unlike Malaysia, these roads can be expanded for at least one lane for each side, although most likely they won't need it.
• Their roads are almost all accompanied with pedestrian lanes - and those lanes are awesomely wide (about 4-5 persons wide)!
• This is very sarcastic towards Malaysians... I see more Aston Martins than Protons!

In just an one hour bus journey, I can smell the difference between a developing country and a developed country. The difference between Malaysia and Singapore after they split in these 47 years is so vast.

Had our dinner at my cousin's house and slept before we start our real exploration at the country of Merlion...

To be continued...